getting out of this haze
its been harsh times for me, but seriously after this weekend. Realized theres alot of things to live for. I love craft spells and the drums with a passion, and now i’m getting back into music, its been a couple of months since ive looked up music, but man craft spells brings me back to fall and the good times. That nostalgia. so content with life right now. I just wish i can show nhi, these music this week after school. that would be amazing. Open minded-ness
bad day, bad week, bad month, bad life
now the only thing i love doing turned on me, why do i have to feel constant pain. what did i do to deserve this, it just hurts typing. I just want it to all end, nothing ever keeps me happy permanently
Can’t believe i was kept in the dark for so long.
aparently i shouldn’t care either.
ill be back blog later, idk things aren’t looking good for me. maybe this is just those little slippery slopes along the way. I mean it’s not like i didn’t put in effort, its not like i don’t care for people’s feelings. It’s not like i don’t want to get better. It’s not like i’m not trying. It’s not like i did anything wrong. I just wish one would care about me as much as i do for them and put as much effort as i do. but i mean after today, words hurt, and i guess they won’t be caring. so…. apparently i shouldn’t care either. So i’ll be back blog. you gave me one of the greatest help anything/anyone has ever done for me. It’s just a really dark time for me, and i really can’t hang. just wish me luck on getting better, i’m taking a detour in the mean time.
Such a gorgeous day to be sad
The Smiths — How Soon Is Now?
“I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does”
i’ve been asking myself
the point whats. pain and sorrow lack of effort is there when.
life sux feel writing anymore when you don’t even.
I don’t like today
Lots of bad new, lots of insecurities. Now I’m on a road of bad decisions
steps back, five
one way street
must not say much
before i end up like joan of arc
i dont want to speak too soon but things are looking up.
to quote the great morriessy
“I can’t wait for summer. And the dreaded sunny day I die”